Here’s a flashback from many summers ago i’ve been meaning to post. enjoy!

“Feelings are gross”

Why would anyone ever think that?
Maybe she was trying to be cute or something but even then…
How could anyone possibly verbalize even the thought?

From where I stand, it’s lack of feelings that we should be afraid of.

Yet, from a careless, fleeting camp friend, I heard those words escape her mouth after pouring out my entire summer to her. I was naked and vulnerable and…

“it’s better if you don’t have them. You’re so naive”

Yeah, but you’re so jaded. And what are you? Like 12? Seriously.
What? How can mindless intimacy be better? Why numb yourself at such a young age?

How can she achieve such nonchalance in regard to the singlemost important event of my life?

So I brush aside my bangs, laugh and say,

“Yeah, I guess you’ve got a point”, with a carefree smile, and an affirming one from her in exchange, the bond sealed.

when really,
feelings are everything to me.